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Faggot. What comes to your mind when you hear someone say it in some rude insolent tone? Yupp, you'll think that person uncilvilised and vulgar, as with any other person who uses any bad word.
Faggot is such a nice word. At least I think so. Umm, its suppossed to be some bad word, cus someone called USA 'faggot America'. But i dunno. It sounds like a nice substitute for other 'badder' words. lol. And so, I've been using it so iften these days people call me the faggot girl. OR at least i think so.
Yep, today got back SA1 marks--every subject. I think I did reasonably well. Not extraordinary, just passable. Here are my final marks, with CA1 included:
EL: 75
CL: 63
MA: 82
SC: 70
HIST: 73
LIT: 68
AVERAGE: 73--A2
If you check the archives of this blog i think you shall find last year's end of year results and find that i have improved a whole lot since last year. My god bless the lord. But it's really still not up to par. Gotta work harder and jiayou for end of yr, cus this yr's streamin'.
God bless.
JM OUT.

Hey dudes...
Napfa is over le! Gosh it passed by so darn fast...But I had to admit it was HARD. Real hard.
It was pouring today. Not drizzlng dude. It'was POURING. 2A and 2B people partnered up to help each other record scores..I ended up with darlin Fang Hui. She was real quick. I think she finished the run in 17 mins..hahas..i was feelin really depressed, I was thinking--even fang hui, was was so good in sports, couldnt hit the 16 min mark. And who was I to attempt to beat her? But i had a aim, to get a gold. And so far, the 5 items hadnt failed me, so I really had to try.
I started off quite ok, though i was one of the 'back' ppl. By half of the first round, i was panting like some mad dog, for god's sake. But yea, i guess i 'chionged' cus dearie Ken Lim ran past me. Seeing his 'mei tui' aka beautiful legs, made my adrenalin flow so much i felt like sprinting all the way. Yup, so I made it in 16 minutes, though quite horrible, still in the 'C' range. Points added up to 27.
Its a Gold for for me!
Woohoo!! Napfa rox.
And to yawn roo, dun worry. We shall accompany you on ur next run. U rule girl.
And gosh I finally met Jun Xiang today!! My junior from 1B. Man, jx, you look real suave up close. And you have those Sc look. Jiayous!! You can do it man. =P
Lol.
Yupp so thats about it i guess. Oh and i saw Jia Wei today!! I waved like planned, and he was fast enough to wave back a little. Thanks dude. Still look as shuai as ever.
JM OUT

In this special post i shall be telling the whole cyber world about one of my best friends, whom i met in my wonderful Primary school, Fuhua. He's cool and cute yet funky and 'dangerous' all at the same time. Yup, you got it. This guy's none other than Bryan.
Hahas, dont get me wrong, I aint opening up some Bryan-fan-club or something, I'm just saying he's a really nice guy and his 'niceness' should be made known to the whole world. Fuhua's great, and lotsa ppl are wonderful, in fact, all from 6A are wonderful, but today I shall be focussing on Bry, aka Bryster, cus we've been in contact via MSN lately--
Well, he's just a really cool dude, currently in RI, sec 2. In a sweet and yet kinda cool and funky way, he's like..able to share ur feelings..and umm..and make you feel really nice and 'warm' inside. Hahas..And, he's real smart and kinda good lookin' but i dunno bout ur taste. Lol.
Anyways, here's his blog
www.crappyboi.blogspot.com
pls visit and leave him a tag of u've the time. Cus he's really a gem.
Yupp that should wrap up my essay on Bryan.
Now movin' on the today's Napfa..
Hahahs..it was kinda okay i guess. We started out with standin' broad jump, with Mr Soh as the tester. Man, i jumped a good 174cm. Hahas..enuff to get me an A. Then we rushed up to the hall for sit and reach. hahs..it was real 'cool' If you know wad i mean, CHRISTINA YONG. Lol. Got a reasonable 55 cm. Then came the inclined pull ups. My gawd, i almost died. But luckily, Ms Bose dearie was there. She was god damn lenient, and thanks to her, i got a real GOOD 12 pull ups. Hey I have nvr gone that far..
Then came the shuttle run. Ehh..not much to talk about. Ran in 11.16 secs. Still manageable, but i guess i could have done much better. Then i got 43 sit ups in a minute. cool. Think i'll have the cramps tmr. Ugghh.
So far, i have gotten 22 points and 3As and 2Bs. Must jiayou for 2.4km run which is comin up on wednesday. Hahas..Wish me luck guys
and to darling MK..feel better kk? We luv ya loads and seein' u so sick makes us feel miserable.
Thanks and bye guys
JM OUT

Today I'm feelin' philosophical--like always. I guess I've been thinkin' about this phrase "Familiarity breeds contempt", and just figured how well it is able to apply to our lives these days. Our lives of grievances, joy and sometimes backstabbing, yea which pretty much comes under the 'grievances' territory. I aint saying these stuff apply to me, yea, well, though it kinda does; I'm jus saying that well maybe, aarrgg nvm..its complicated and me being a person with very few words, cant find the apt words to discribe exactly how I'm feelin' now.
Ok maybe i can. I feel life is nothing but some great big lie, because everything just doesnt seemt to go the way I want it to. And I know its never good to harbour hatred, but its just HUMAN to do so. Yea, and I am human aint I? Yea so i guess...I habour loads of hatred. I try not to, I try to 'forgive and forget' but it just seems so hard. So damn hard.
Luckily there are those around me to brighten up my day and inject laughter and a little bit of happiness in my life. Yes, and i cant thank you guys enough, the list of ppl goes on and on thus i shall not be typing them here. But yea u shld know who I'm referring to. Thanks guys. Really.
I guess this is just some cycle we have to live with, and hopefully, sometime in the near future, we would be able to break free from this cycle and start our quest for freedom. Freedom, not manipulation or tyranny whatsoever. For those who've read animal farm, I am parallel to dearie Snowball, that fat pig who got blamed for everything someone else did. Life sux and its just so unfair. But what can we do about it? Its not like we are influencial enough to change the world or something. I just wanna cry. Cry. Tears falling down like some waterfall.
Thats why we gotta have mottos and some principals to lead us in the correct directionin life. Mine's 'Never let the fear of striking out keep u from playin the game' Who true thats is. Sheer grit and determination's my all time fav. Quoted from Mrs Chay.
I'll miss primary school and my life back then. Really wish time could overutrn so that I'ld be given time to cherish the good old days--as if. I can imagine though, cus fuhua, and all the memories that cme with it, shall forever be etched in my mind..

Whoa..Finally Mid Yrs are officially over man!! It's been hard work all of last week, but i guess all's paid off with all the FUN I'm gonna have for the next two days. Sadly I have to say this fun aint gonna last long, cus my dad's bugging me to study. I can't do that, I told him, it'll totally defy the law of nature. Studying after exams?? Like wad kinda weird man's theory is that?! I dunno. Dont care either. U noe what, i think exams horror aint about the actual studying u hafta do or the actual exam, its actual the results. Like..aarrgg nvm..u guys shld understand right? Silence...Okok...thats cold..but nvm..
Oh man..and one more thing..I felt so darn bad today. I am so dumb and forgetful--i didnt put in the pink slips today--and mrs look was like: Chairpersons of 1B, 1C.....2B..u did NOT put in the pink slips...And i suddenly fell silent. I had totally humiliated my entire class. 2B, I am sooo sorry. It just kinda slipped my mind. I promise I'll be more responisble next time. Aarrg, its jus these few days have been the toughest days of my life. Have got so many things on my mind and yet due to exams i havent got the time to sort them out. Exams over..CCA shall resume. Much as I love guides, I dont look forward to activity no more. I dunno why but i guess it cus nothing's the same anymore. Ppl change. I change. I jus dont know, dont care. Feel like making myself sick every tuesday and friday. I hate my life. And i dunno why..i aint liking guides anymore these days.
And yea, i would like to clarify something. I do not like Ivan--as in the guy from 2F, scouts. He's just a really cool dude whom I happen to have known since primary school, and yea, therefore, I consider him my darling. Get to know him. He can be real charming. I aint eyeing him though, my heart's wif someone else. Hahahs. Ken Lim. Yup. And yea. if you like Ivan or anything, then go for it, he;s nice and I guess, you'll grow to understand him soon enough. :P Phew!! And i though I didnt stand a chance...u say.
And I guess Ill like to end off by saying that 2B rox my world. I dun care wad others think of us or say behind our back cus they're STUPID!! We rule!!
2B RULEX
JM OUT.

Hey Jolene,
if you're reading this, do cheerup. Cus its natural to jus die down seomtimes and go all numb and feelingless. Its some cycle that all of us mus face, god knows why. Its like overcoming a hurdle, and it cant be made possible unless you try real hard and have lotsa good frens by your side. I'm sure the latter's no problemo for u, but i guess u gotta try harder. Life can leave us dejected sometimes, but when the rain falls and the storm gets blown away by the northern winds, then all will be fine, and I can assure you, northern winds are round the corner. Trust me.
You're our happy fruit, or so to say, incharge of our welfare, and I guess, you've been serving us so well in terms of bonding the class together that we've forgotten about your welfare. We love you loads and of you've any problem, I', sure 2B is hundred percent behind you supporting ya.
So jus hang in there.
Ps, guys..i wun be blogging for a while. Mid Yr starts next week. Good luck to one and all.
JM OUT